Corona has made things really difficult, in that all the usually ways I would cope with emotional distress or depression aren't available to me. My mother lived with me and I'm now surrounded by her things that I have to pack up for donation.  I wasn't even able to have a memorial service for her.  I had hoped to be able to have one in the fall but that isn't possible.

 

 I've been home since March 2020 and the only time I get out of the house other then to go grocery shopping is to take evening walks on the empty college campus behind me house (they were smart and stayed closed).  I didn't start going for walks until July when I got sick and tired of being sick and tired.  Sometimes when your depressed you can hit a point where you are just annoyed with yourself.  Working from Home has kept me busy and so has packing up my mom's things but I'm at a point where I need to get back into the world in some form or other.

 

Being around people makes me anxious now. I'm sure a lot of people are having the same issue.  I plan my shopping trips like military missions so I go to as few places as possible.  I forego bargains and just hit one store for everything and go home.  I'm someone who use to love window shopping and going to places like Panera or Starbucks to sit, have something warm, nibble something sweet and write. I miss writing.  I haven't written much other than journaling in a very long time.  I've been listening to more music and that has been inspiring me so my hope is start writing and get something creative happening for myself as a outlet . I drive around and listen to music; window shopping the world.  I think if you home is like a space ship then your car is your shuttle craft.